Move to another place with other Chinese may be a good solution to release Liu's pressure. Although they are stranger, they have the same culture, habit, language and the most important to me is the food. The thing that could cause my homesick the most is my mom's cooking. That's is very important to most of Chinese I believe.
I have the similar feeling as Liu Zongren has sometimes. I'm confused of why I put so many efforts to come to here, which is a place that is not belongs to me. I cannot say people are unfriendly here, because people say Hi to me as I pass through the hall way in dorm. However, there is nothing in our conversation other than that. I used to be a forty girl when I'm in China and I feel like I was a quiet alien in this dorm.
Life has to continue though. I choose to be in here by myself, and I must be responsible to myself. Thanks god, I have a bunch of Chinese friend here. This is the only thing I feel I am better than Liu Zongren. I can not feel the loneliness when I'm with them. Many people sad the feeling of outsider is just a step. I hope the step won't take too long.
vocabulary:
shabbily: 1. so as to appear worn and threadbare or dilapidated.
2. in a mean and ungenerous manner.
rumble a loud low dull continuous noise.
bluntly: in a blunt direct manner
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